f_a_s_a_d

f_a_s_a_d @ 2004-09-05T15:32:00

2004-09-05T19:35:08Z

pull this mysterious shit.

she said dont, dont let it go to your head.

2004-09-01T23:00:55Z

hmm lets see

ok well i just got back from work @ salvios, man its a nice job, and i think i get paid under the table, he's cool as fuck, you can smoke in the back room and everything, and i think its steady to. word. met this cool cat, he smokes, drinks, etc. he's cool as fuck.

haha there is this girl who works there, but she's over 21 haha no chance. not that i really care to have on. but she's nice.. maybe a new alchohol hook up? who knows. but its a sweet job gotta work there tomm from 10-3 then the loop as a cook from 5-?? wahoo im loving this.. loosing all my free time :( but it takes other things off my mind. :-d

love

~~Maybe~~ :-\

goooooooooooooooood morning

2004-09-01T15:45:22Z

Goood morning!!! well to all of u who r reading this its prob afternoon or what not

real quick.

woke up @ 930 did my work outs :-d feel really good then showered and went up to salvios, to be told to come back @ 430 to start training :-d
then went to the loop to be tol to come back tomm @ 5 to start training there for cook :-d

im keeping my fingers crossed that one of them can work me in the morn and one @ night.

2 jobs nukka, and school comming up next week. AHAH finally
my schedule is booooked. :-d

im just so happy.

bring on the green

Bring on the lifestyle

im doing this right. so fuck all of you thats holding me back.

i mean that with love hahahaha.

-the only thing thats gonna suck is my time to hang out w/ my boys, and my girls will be cut down. :-\ oh well.

dont expect much updates from this anymore. i wont have to much time.

-peace out- a-town. c ya downtown behind bars haha.

sudden change

2004-08-31T23:00:41Z

Hmm damn i feel real good

so i went into this pizza place called salvio's to go fill out and application, basically got hired on the spot i go in tomm :-d

then no more then 30 minutes after that, the loop calls. gotta go there tomm after salvios and talk about the job there :-d to jobs mother fuckers! finally. and then im going to school in a week :-d. i finally think its all starting to change. everything is starting to get better, my family is happy and proud of me for once :-d. and everything. i just think life is beautiful. long work days ahead, thats the hard part, but it will be well worth it.

the car i always wanted will soon be mine
the life style i want, im working towards
been taking care of myself :-d cig smoking has dropped dramatically. and i think workin so much will kill anytime i have to smoke.-- been excersizeing like crazy. im feeling good. my face is clearing up. i think im growing lolololol. and my body's gettin nice and fit. im loving this. im loving everything. all my friends.

and i just got this feeling that everything with me and melissa will slowly work itself out. She's such an amazing person :-D. i miss her so. but we still love each other. and im hopeing we will get thru this. and if not :( it was all so worth it.

i miss hanging with lauren and jenny :(

I love everyone!!

hmm

2004-08-31T19:16:21Z

hmm

Ya'll wanna see a tragedy?

like jon has said

fuck this fuck that fuck you.

ready set. GO

crew - Krew WTF

2004-08-30T18:39:20Z

Yeah this entry is specifically about jj

Alright. WHAT THE HELL IS UR FUCKING DEAL. i'd love to know.
Your copping out on us like we dont mean shit to you. I dont know how brian, rose and them r taking it. BUT IM TAKIN IT HARD.
I am so fucking confused, and pissed off. JJ' We've always been there together, thru it all. Skipping school. Fucking around. Pranks, east cary bomb scares. everything. its always been you and i, masterminding all the mayham. the crazy talks, the deep talks. You where there for me, from ur sister-to lindsy-sara-lisa. To the other day. and i've been there for you. jj we took greensboro's hearts together, we stole cary's beat. We where recoginized. if i was in the discplinary office, you can bet ur next in line. Blue lights flashing. cops comming. we been there, together b4. We took blames for each other. we took the fall. How can you throw this shit away. how can u take those memmories. and call it a BEAUTIFUL FUCKING MISTAKE? i'd love to know.
So what we havent been talkin much lately. i've called u, u've called me, the whole party shit, that wasnt in my control. it was capped.
but this is gonna b my only attempt.

Fuck you if u walk out the door.

"i've seen more guts on 11 year old kids"

Dont be a little bitch.

ouchhhhhhh

2004-08-30T18:16:19Z

OUCH
I got bored and i started to cook. i made this really good soup/chili thing. its banging i swear!! buit i also took some bread and put this really good mix of seasoning and toated it in the oven and when i went to ge the tray out i used paper towels and the heat went right thru and burned my finger really bad. son of a bitch.. OUCH lol. so my middle finger on my right hand is like blown up and the index on the left is just crispy and burnt. lol. hmm oh well the freakin meat when i marinated it. and then fried it started splattering everwhere. haha i made a mess. but at least i can cook. and my oven isnt broken ;-) hehe.
Well hmm i was taking a look @ laptops i might have one as early as tomm. wahoo. its banging its gonna woop ass.
Tomm morning i go to the damn psychotirst *refered to hd for now own* and i will see if i pulled off gettin those damn xanax. man that be hottt shit.! if i can pull that off. id be sooo happy. haha.

God damnit, big l, i didnt stick to my guns hahaha!

love.

helsinky

2004-08-28T15:45:03Z

Hmm ok well nothing special during the day, just road my bike to the schol n shit

ok well around 6 went to go grab mongo and then we walked from my house to bond park, and that was ok, gotta alot of ppl commenting nicely on my hair!! so ha.
show was ok
Jon: EHHHGAHHHHARGGGBLAHHH

mongo and i met this awsome german chick *shiza*, its all his lol.

then walked melissa, jen, and curly fry to kroger, then walked back to my house.

we saw starksy and hutch, haha and daredevil. then went otuside and had the weirdest conversation, about robotic dogs, and how i want to make them grow with us as we get old, and make beer, for us, and drive us home when where drunk, and yeahh it was cool.

ok well its time for a new day w00t. lazy daze? who knows. all i know this day will end wiht me gettin messed up. peace love rock and roll.

ehh :(

meaningless

2004-08-27T15:40:15Z

A slew of lyrics, Dedicated to myself, from my self.

yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes

this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

yesterday is a kid in the corner
yesterday is dead and over
)(switchfoot - this is your life )(

Overbearing panic attack entrenching my veins
In an hour I'll be okay I pray this pain will go away permanently someday
I'VE seen more than I should have to I'VE seen this on my own

This song is a poem to myself it helps me to live
In case of fire BREAK the glass and move on into your own
your own

Reoccurring drowning effect entrenching my brain
I hope you'll be okay someday so I can say that you moved on in the right way
WE'VE seen this and WE'VE breathed this and WE'VE lived this on our own

This song is a poem to myself it helps me to live
In case of fire BREAK the glass and move on into your own
><taproot - poem ><

Last night I swallowed liquor and a lighter
and this morning I threw up fire
But it's nothing new
I've been piecing it together and it's got something to do
with every look thrown like a knife across a crowded room
And every slow and quiet car ride I spent drinking in the backseat
Every stupid melody to every stupid song,
and every stupid word that everybody's hanging on

What difference does this difference in age make?
I know how it ends... she'll kill me quick.
Call 911, I'm already dead but
someone should be caught and held responsible
for this bloody mess
!!brand new - sudden death in carolina!!

She said
"don't, don't let it go to your head
Boys like you are a dime a dozen,
Boys like you are a dime a dozen"
She said
"you're a touch overrated,
you're a lush and I hate it
but these grass stains on my knees
they won't mean a thing"

And all I (all I)
Need to know (need to know)
Is that I'm somethin you'll be missin
(is that I'm somethin that you're missin)
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...
~~tbs- your so last summer~~

When everything you'll get is
everything that you've wanted, princess
(well which would you prefer)
My finger on the trigger, or
(me face down, down across your floor)
Me face down, down across your floor
(me face down, down across your floor)
Well just so long as this thing's loaded
??tbs - cute without the e (cut from the team)??

If you wanna call it a heartache,
Then I shouldn't regret those things, I miss her
If you want the pain to go away,
Better suck up your pride and admit you lost her
Let her go, move on, let her go, move on, let her go
//blink 182 - time to break up //

and most importantly from the roots of my early music days. bring in something corporate.

And if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
And all the things i put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my punk rock princess

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things I did
Hey Maybe Baby, You could keep me up in bed
My punk rock princess

Spin Around me like a Dream
We played out on this movie screen
And i said, did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did you know I missed you
Did You know i miss you
Did you know i miss you
Did you know i miss you

God, I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
And you see, no, that i've been missing in my Living room
Cause this is what i miss, what i miss
We don't have much room
I said, does anyboy need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

-something corporate constantine remix x3902390 - :-(

f_a_s_a_d @ 2004-08-26T17:08:00

2004-08-26T21:10:29Z

boo :-d